2/20/09

Look away turn your face

Walk now and leave this place

I can’t look up or look around

I only react to the silent sound

The friendship that was often found clearly wasn’t bound

A hurried step and a guarded glance

What created such a stance?

Feb 2010- somewhere in there

In the shadow of another one

I fear it can’t be done

To move to step to head the way

I’m sad to say I cannot stay

Take a walk make a plan

Move the world to take a stand

Promises unfulfilled in the night

Knowing that it won’t stay bright

Tears, heartache in the lined turmoil

Hands tear the dirt digging the soil

Turning the sun it is undone

Taking the hair leaving it wrung

random

9/24/08

What is the point where we turn to face

The disappointment of the human race

A hungry child and shackled wrists

Fallen kings upon the history lists

To learn to breathe the fiery scene

Do we all depart when we all should lean

Upon the author and creator of all

Is He not the One that we should call?

For counsel and care

One must only share

The life that God needs us to lead

I’ll give my hand if He’ll plant the seed

ok I know- overdue- but I am going back into blogging mode! I have decided to put up some of my poetry for you all to read. I figured I only share it with my family and a few close friends -why not put it out into this internet world that we have so lovingly come to appreciate and lean on. So, here is one of my favorites!


Addiction



A moment of silence when reality sinks in

That this thing I'm running to is my chosen sin

I race to addiction to numb all the pain

Looking for answers and pushing the blame

An outside source seems answer enough

When the world is yelling, "so what that it's rough?"

So I cling to the the dream I'll feel alive though I'm dying

Knowing too sure that its myself that's lying



Once daylight is out and I see where I've been

I try to forget that I chose this sin

All consuming and pressing I can't seem to break free

Where's the freedom I was promised so I could just be

But I'm chained to this thing that never lets go

And now it's time I realize I've never been this low



With gasps and tears streaming down my face

The clarity is that I've become interlaced

Every part of my body consumed with the taste

I hurry to that thing in a frenzied haste

Can't hide from the fury it always ignites

Looking outward or inward I can't find my sight

So I push and I claw and I sometimes break free

But I always come back and I give up...me

NEW YORK

I was talking to my boyfriend Bryon and he mentioned my blog- I realized that I hadn' t written on my blog in a long time. I just returned home from New York tonight. i was there doing our New York Showcase. it went well- I sang Back to Before from Ragtime. I went and saw Mary Poppins, Wicked, and 9 to 5. It was an incredible experience. What a crazy few days!!!!!

wow

Sometimes I feel like I can't accomplish all that I have ahead of me. Sometimes it seems ridiculous to think I could finish my projects, assignments, paper, or tests. But the minutes turn to hours and the hours turn to days and time moves on. It's just another day. It passes whether I accomplish things or not. It's all about choices and decisions about how I will spend my time. I'm not saying I'm good at it but I guess I recognize the need,the drive, the desire to finish in a timely fashion. But I don't want to just finish! I want to finish well! But I suppose there's no use in stressing about it because the deadline will inevitably come.

Hi

I was walking home from class and this guy said hi to me as he was passing me- I responded in a delayed fashion. Then another guy was walking towards me and I averted my eyes- I didn't say hello. After that I decided that if a complete stranger could say hi to me and make me feel good then I could do the same. So, for the rest of the walk I smiled and said hello to everyone that I passed- they responded kindly - I felt like I paid it forward, you know? just a little thing can make a difference right?