ok I know- overdue- but I am going back into blogging mode! I have decided to put up some of my poetry for you all to read. I figured I only share it with my family and a few close friends -why not put it out into this internet world that we have so lovingly come to appreciate and lean on. So, here is one of my favorites!


Addiction



A moment of silence when reality sinks in

That this thing I'm running to is my chosen sin

I race to addiction to numb all the pain

Looking for answers and pushing the blame

An outside source seems answer enough

When the world is yelling, "so what that it's rough?"

So I cling to the the dream I'll feel alive though I'm dying

Knowing too sure that its myself that's lying



Once daylight is out and I see where I've been

I try to forget that I chose this sin

All consuming and pressing I can't seem to break free

Where's the freedom I was promised so I could just be

But I'm chained to this thing that never lets go

And now it's time I realize I've never been this low



With gasps and tears streaming down my face

The clarity is that I've become interlaced

Every part of my body consumed with the taste

I hurry to that thing in a frenzied haste

Can't hide from the fury it always ignites

Looking outward or inward I can't find my sight

So I push and I claw and I sometimes break free

But I always come back and I give up...me